December 30, 2011

08.10.2011...jnjy dy...

      
            hry nyh pash subuh aq ta smbong tido un..y?myb bap kna kco nan myra pg2..haha..act..dy kol aq ajq kje..tlong la..bap ad pkeja cuty..rme kot..wu y dy kol aq pg2 mntk tlong..tp aq lak ta free..aq ad jnjy nan adeq2 aq na kuo g men bowlink..so that..aq jd la sberslah nan myra..tp na wat cne..law aq free, da lme aq tlong da..nseb la myra paam..tkot2 gk dy cm mrah nan aq ke..heh..

            act kuo g jaybee nan adeq aq mang rncg na men bowlink la..y sonoknye..ta rme un at daiman wu..mang la..awi khamis kot..law awi sbtu ke..ahd ke..or rbu ke..mang la rme.haha..dpt la men 2gme..na men byk2..badget lry lak koz sume gne wet aq..mty ek..haha..after that ingt na tngok wyg ke law ad cte besh..tp hmpeh gle kot!tgok2..tade un cte besh..mang la byk gk cte y bwu kuo..but adeq aq ckp sume ta besh..ok find!hah.aq un cm ta taw na watpe da..g la ajk adeq2 aq mkn..at foodcourt jek un..bap aq na mkn bnda y kyg!heh..eleh sezzling aje un..heh..y aq bengang gle an..adeq aq na mkn yong tau fu..aq la y plih an isi2 sume..first tyme kot aq bly rm10!gle kntg..na kte byk..ta jgk..ta taw la pe y mhl sgt an..mang tenuk gle ah!btw..tape la..wat pngajrn len kly jgn bly ag at c2..haha...jaat kot...

          dlm kol 2 lbh ktowank da grak alek kota..aq na g tngok external..mang la swies cntek kot..tp mhl gle kot..kwn2 aq sume bly murah aje..aq ny ad angin..kdg2,mhl wu lyn aje..tp nyh mls lak na lyn..wu aq tros bla je..sengal an?haha..then g kip mart jp na bly blah..haha..tp cian ayh aq ta mkn ag..ta taw lak dy ta mkn..aq un kn la dlu nan adeq2 aq..ble na ajq ayh aq mkn..ta taw at ne na ajk..haha..last2 g la mkn at mrrybrown..haha..act..ayh aq cke mkn bubur at c2..so..dy un mkn la..wlau un aq taw dy ta kyg sgt tp dpt la isi pwot..cian aje ayh aq..um..

           td dlm kol 8.30..aq kuo nan iqa g uma myra..sje2 ajk borak bap iqa na alek da esok..smbil2 aq na la cte2 nan dy pe y sbenarnye blaku sume..mle2 aq cm cte elok aje la dry awl knl sume..mang aq ta smpt na cte at iqa bap ktowank da lme ta jmpe n da lme gle ta lpk..so..iqa mang ta taw sgt cte sume..n pai stu part nyh, aq ta thn sgt ble cte nan dy..cm na ngis da..pai dy ckp..jgn la sday..aq un ase na ngis da..haha..lwk kot iqa nyh...dy sek ckp y tape la..t lme2 ko lpe la dy..cmne aq leh lpe an nsa..ble aq da ad owg y tol2 aq syg ckunk..n ble aq da tol2 syg an owg wu..dy tggl an aq...da la..act..dtg uma myra na amek ombak windu..hah

sday gle kot tngok ombak windu wu!aq ngis ta bnty2..ntah la..mang feeling gle kot..aq dok bygkn "dy" lak y jd watak utma cte wu..haha..sengal ek?tp ble tyme imbasan2 cinta dowank wu mang wat aq cm trase gle..yela..bap aq un slalu trimbas2 kngn aq nan dy..swies sday..aq ase pe y izzah wu ase..hah..over lak..ade ke?heh...swies weh aq mkin2 windu sgt2 at dy..tuhan aje y tahu sume nyh...aq ta dpt na gmbrkn rse sday aq nyh...

December 29, 2011

aq ta na la!paam x?




            Nothink wat at uma awi nyh..bse la bro law at uma..ctte pe ad?haha..bgn un lmbt hmpeh..tp ad cte swiez poyo la bg aw..dlm kol 12 wu aq ingt na msk an..tgok2 mk aq da msk ikan kari..aq un ok la..mtb bap ikan wu aq ta gety msk kot..then aq un twoz msk syur..ble da siap,aq ajq adeq aq mkn..then dowank sume tamo mkn ag..sume wat hal masing2..ble da kol 2 wu,adeq aq bwu ase na mkn..ble aq na g amek nsik at priuk aje..omg!nsi xad!abg,nsik ta msk ag!hahaha..bse law mk aq msk lauk, mst dy akn msk nsik bap dy akn bwk bkl..aq un ta pasan nsik xad..haha...so kna la yngguh ktowank na mkn..then aq msk nsik..cian aje adeq aq lpo gle da..haha..ape la yna..brgn aje..nseb ayh aq tamo mkn..n da kuo un g kje..law dy ad..hbis aq..hahah..sengal an?

Act..npe ntah tetibe aq tringt sal fb dy..aq un tnye la iqa..dy ta taw..um..then aq tnye la man tp cm ayt kalis2 la...

Aq : na tnye..law laky da clash n ta syg aweq dy ag..mst dy da dlete picha ex dy at fb an?n nme fb un tuka..ta cm nan ex dy dlu?
Man : ntah..hahaha..tgok jgk la..law dy pdm myb tkot aweq bru nmpak..dn jeles,gdoh..atau mmg laky uh da mnympah thap mluat..bb uh pdm..haha
Aq :law picha ex dy ad ag n then nme un ta tuka..pe mknenye ek?
Man : wu mknenye..dy da mls na brfesbuk..dy lyn google+ lak..haha
Aq : bkn la!picha prof dy tuka..wall dy hide..dlu off fb ckunk on..taan dy ta dlete picha nan ex lau dy da ad awex.ta ke awek dy mrh n jeles..
Man : wtpe pmpuan wu na mrh law dy da taw status yana nan dy?..heee
Aq : mang la..tp awek ne ta mrh lau pkwe ad picha ex dy ag..dy lau da ta ske,dy akn dlete sumenye taw..
Man : pmpuan wu an jntan..hahaha..adoi,xnk ckp sbenrnye..bb na tlong yna lpe an dy..tp ta ckp cm pe lak..hahaha
Aq : mang la..tp ta an pmpuan wu ta..nta la..pape la..owg taan lpe an dy ok!paam x?ta yah na wat owg lpe an dy!ta prlu ok!
Man : wooo...sory2..owg mntk maap...

Haaa.....ta psl2 kna smbur nan aq..aq gwm tol la..cm na sket an aty aq lak..ag la na wat aq lpe dy..ta ske ok..aq da jnjy taan lpe dy..ske2 aje dy na wat aq lpe..asl?ta suke ok..aq ske wat pe aq ske..da aq ase aq leh tnggu dy..bio la..ptotnye skong aq.nyh ta..down an aq..npe tade owg paam pwasaan aq ha?pe y aq ase?kowank ta taw hbgn ktowank cne dlu..so ta yah la na pk bwok sal roh aje...kowank nmpak pe roh wat..tp ad kowank nmpk pe aq wat?kowank ta taw pe dlm aty aq nyh...aq y ta gety jge pkwe ok..jgn na slh an roh sratus pratus aje...aq na tnggu dy jgk!y mrane ke kcewa ke..hepi  ke t aq..bkn kowank....aq syg dy ok!jgn na pish an ktowank!n stu ag..aq ag knl pkwe aq dr owg len!



December 28, 2011

new fb!hoho




             Tarikh awi nyh 27/12..da sbulan da bufday dy lps..y mne aq ta dpt na wat pe y aq tringin sgt na wat..sgt2 la trkilan..n tp bak kte pqa roomate aq..ko simpan aje la..t da kwen,ko wat la nan suamy ko..soo sweet!heh..tp sday la jgk..aq an pntg lau pe y aq na sgt, aq ta wat..bak kte shaz..aq an ta leh..lau aq na..aq mang na jgk wat..hummm..tp na wat cne an..jdoh ta pnjg tok kapel..n lau aq wat un..myb meaningless gle bg dy..yela..im nothink for him..n kwn2 aq sume un kte..ta yah la wat.dowank tkot aq y kcewa gle t..ummm...enough!tacink lak..haha

             Awi nyh aq ta kje..soo..pe ag..bngon un lmbt la gle..ish3..pe na jd nan ank dre sowank nyh..hah..dlu ad la jgk bgn awl bap ad owg na d kjot..n ad la bnda na wat..na bsame owg trsyg..but now..xad bnda un na wat..tmbah2 busan aje t aq..wu y mls na bgn awl sgt..hah..alsan! :p...dek krane aq bgn lmbt, so lmbat la jgk aq na prepair tok lunch..tbe2 mk aq kte dy na alek tghawi..ok find..aq un msk na nsik dlu..n sdia an syur tok msk..ble mk aq alek aje..dy tnye mne mknn?da siap lom?e,eh..aq un ckp la na mkn pe bap aq ta msk lg..sje jek gwau nan mk aq ckp y mk aq ta soh un msk..heh..ta sngke lak mk aq tachink..aq un jd la sberslah..then mk aq ckp bly lauk aje at kdai bwh..aq un trlepas..”mk nyh serabai aje..”..omg!aq men2 aje..bkn swies..ase dose ta?n the aq un jd sbrslh..n aq un diam aje..tkot trlps ckp..aq an mang gny..wu y dlu aq ta pna un maki pkwe aq..tetibe aq trmaki dy..hbis mrh gle kot dy..aq nyh law ckp aje..n tahan aje pwasaan..wu y kuo mcm2..hummm..ape la ek..mak...akak mntak maap aw..tade niat n ta shaje un..im soe.... :(

            Act..aq wat fb bwu awi nyh..gdik ta?haha..mle mls gk na wat..tp cm owg bodo lak tade fb..haha..but act..aq just add owg2 y rpt nan aq aje..tamo da add n approve owg y bkn2 ag da..t personel aq..dowank taw...cm dlu...ta suke2!hah..n act...fb lme byk kot kngn..tamo la..bio la g2 aje...btw...ntah npe aq bkk fb faiz..na add dy la..tgok2 at fwen dy ad nme oppa roh uchikina...aq swies tkejot..bap ingt dy off ag an..umm..then..ase cm na jek tgok acc fb dy..aq un klik..yup..mmg on la..n btmbah2 trkejot lg..gmbo aq nan dy still ad at album prof pic dy..ya Allah..pe sume nyh..nme fb dy un still nme y lme..aq swies ta paam lgsong pe y aq tgok..but cme gmpo prof pic dy y dlu..mse ktowank bwu2 knl dlu...aq plek npe dy ta tuka n buang sume kngn nan aq dlu..bkn ke dy bnc aq?npe dy smpn ag?tp aq..?aq da dlete sume picha dy at fb..nme un aq da tuka..n totally sume picha dy at lappy un aq da tade da...slah ke aq wat wu sume?aq kliru..but aq da simpan sume kngn wu at pndrive y aq bg dy..stu jek aq hrp..dy ta buang n simpn leklok pndrive wu..sbb pe?sbb aq na suatu hry nnt,law dy alek at aq..dy akn bg at aq pndrive wu..kngn ktowank..y sgt indah..n trsgt indah..aq ta pna lupe an sume wu..wlau un aq da tade picha wu..tp stiap kngn nan dy trsimpan lg dlm otk aq nyh..ya Allah..aq hrp pe y aq tgok td..slah stu ptnjuk ko..y dy masih syg an aq n ta lpe an aq..cmne pe y aq rse skrg...aminnnn...

              "ya Allah..dktkn hty aq dgn hty roh hasman..n dktknlah hty roh hasman dgn hty ku..briknlah jdoh antra kami..izinknlah kami hidup brsma sbgai suamy istri y sah..krane aq bnar2 ikhlas cintakan dy..brkatilah perasaan aq nyh ya Allah..berkatikanlah hgn y bkl trjalin...ampunkanlah dose2 aq ya Allah....aminnnn"


December 27, 2011

mlsnye!!!




             Act awi nyh aq kje kot..mle2 mlas gle na bgon..pai alrm aq dok jrit2 un ta sdar dry..hah..ase mls aje na kje awi nyh..nan pwot aq wat hal la plak pg2 bte nyh..yela..da mlm2 mkn mee bndung..cne ta sentap pwot aq nyh..haha..pash pai kdai un stil mmbuak2 lg nfsu aq na ke tndas..skit gle kot!da la ta leh na sbor n than..kna gk aq g..xad owg jge un aq g gak..drpd aq trlepas at c2..cne?ag naye..hahaha..tp aq pesan la at aunty..nseb la lau c.suri mrh an..haha...nga syok2 kje...(ta la syok mne)..amen cumel dtg lak at kdai!huhu..suke3..mlu un ad la jgk..hahah..lwk kot kdg2 nan ktowank..msj2..tp at kdai ta pna jgk btegor..haha..da mcm kapel lak..kapel un ta cm wu kot!haha..nta npe nta bkenan tgok mke dy..tp ta bknan na lbh2..ag un dy bwh aq..lg la kuat gle smoke..awl2 aq da reject jd pkwe..haha..

            nth npe awi nyh rme aje dok mngusha2 aq at kdai wu..mse sbtu aq kje tade lak..sowank un tade..hrm na pndang aq..haha..ad la gk sowank due..nyh aq pndek an cte na amek y last la..aq dok jmpe bro kdai sbelah an..dy lak mntk aq fb..aq soh crik sndry..ble tibe kdai johan slatan..ad la bbrape dew nyh dok at mje dpn..tbe2 pggil aq tnye fb..aq ckp tade..dowak ta cye...da lme wu..dowank dtg ag na oder mkn..tp pnye dy tnye mcm2..lme kot..jp aq order stu jek mknn.hmpeh gle...huh..aq un bla la..da lme pash wu..dy pnggil ag..pnye tnye mcm2..last2 order ag stu..mgkok jmbn tol!huh..da aq ckp tade fb dy ta cye..mang tade..da mntk lak no aq..cm kmbing aje..huh..aq mls lyn..tp mse borak nan dowank un aq ta pndg sgt un  mke dowank..jus snyum aje..bap pe..aq ta na la jtoh2 aty at laky ag da..ckop2 la..n aq tamo ske cpe2 kot..aq syg dy ag...alhamdulillah...

             awi nyh alek lmbt sket la kot..bap ad owg msok kdau saat2 akhir..huhu..lg la g mlencong ke psr mlm at kote jye..mang la lmbt an alek uma..ntah trlepas la asar aq..astagfirullahalazim...pe na jd nyh yna..qada’..ta smpat la plak..huhu..byk gk la aq mmborong at psr td..nta npe mroyan..haha..act..adeq2 aq rme kot at uma..so aq sje la..sonok an mkn rme2..heh..aq bly mrtbk 2, apm blik 2 nan kebab 3..tp ta ckop jgk..haish...sbo aje..heh..awi nyh y epinye sek ade aje bhn wat gelak dr at kdai pai la alek uma..bse la dowank an jnis y huha2..aq lyn aje..tp ktwe aje un..haha..

            ummm..myra2..ade ke ptot dy ckp..da pg ptg siang mlm ko sbot sal dy aje..ne na lpe..si man un ckp cm wu...aishhh..da aq syg dy..mang la aq sbot aje sal dy..rindu kot!always ingt dy k..ag la ble dgr lgu ombak windu..tgkap jiwang!cm na ngis siot!!!tachink2..asek mmp dy aje kot..omg!knape la cm gnyh ek..nan adek aq ta hbis2 bahan aq aje..taw la dy plyboy gk..huh..wu aq mnyampah tol nan laky..sume sme aje..tade y len..law kwn nan laky stndrd la..bap aq dr dlu mang jnis y rpt nan laky..tp aq dulik ape..jnjy aq ta kapel..wu aq mang pasang niat ta an ad aty nan kwn2 aq da..ckop2 la an..n aq na mnyinggel aje dlu..um..aq ta trlampau mghrp sgt dy akn alek at aq..bap t aq gk y mrane..tape la..aq juz tnggu ..n aq na tngok pngakhir kisah aq nyh..bap owg ta an tngok brmulanya sseorg wu tp brakhirnye sseorg wu..hah..im still luv u!


December 25, 2011

yeayh!at uma da...heh



             Hry nyh first day aq at uma..but ta la dok uma sgt..um..act..bgn2 tdo aje aq cm da tachink..bap aq mmp dy..ummm..wndu sgt2 at dy..cm na nangis un ad..yna..kuatknlah hty n dry ko...sabar k...knape la kerap sgt aq mmp dy..sbb aq trlmpau wndu at dy ke?ya Allah..btol ke dy skit un ta windu aq cm aq windu dy?ya Allah..tnangkn lah hty aq nyh..

              Hry nyh aq tlong myra..dy soh aq kje at kdai mk dy bap jehan cuty..jiran aq..aq un ta esa la bap aq mang da bse tlg dy..tp hry nyh nan isnin aje la..mls na kje sgt..bap na tlong mk aq aje at uma...at kdai, cm bse la an aq kje..nseb la ad remy tlong aq nan myra..law ta sush gk la..bap rme gk la owg dtg an..ta ckop tgn kot..dgn owg wat air un tade..hampeh tol..huh..y si myra lak sek tnye sal amen aje..mlu kot aq..da dy ckp2 nan remy lak uh..mgkok aje..

            mse da ptg2 wu,si myra ajq aq g kdai abg dy anto brg..mle2 dy na ajk kak ana..tbe2 dy usha aq lak..aq un..pe ag..na jgk!last2..aq y g nan myra..na jmpe amen!huhu..segan kot..aq un dy aje at sne..ta tgor amen..amen un diam aje..aq un lalala..aje la..huhu..leh plak dy smok dpn aq..taik!ta suke3..tp aq ske dy..huhu..act..law aq ske mne un..tp dy smoke,awl2 aq da rject..haha..nga lpk2 un..tbe2 kak lis ckp aq mkin kuwoz da..aq senyum aje la..then dy ckp..jgn la frust3..hah?kak lis taw ke?mlunye..aq diam aje la..sengih aje..hah..

             mse on da way alek wu,aq sek cte sal dy aje at myra...pai myra ckp..sush sgt ek ko na lpe dy..aq tnye la npe..bap aq always cte sal dy...ko syg sgt ke nan dy?myb bru2 kot...ya Allah myra...aq syg sgt2 at dy..pai ckunk..wlaupn da lme aq ta jmpe dy..tp hty aq nyh msih ad dy..bsr ne dy bnci aq un..bsar mne dy lpe aq un..aq ta pna lpe dy myra...aq sntiase tnggu dy..n aq sgt2 brhrp y pnntian aq nyh ta sia2...law la aq leh ckp cm wu at myra..tp aq ta trdaye bap aq tkot aq akn ngis..sume owg myb slah an dy..tp aq ta slh an dy sume..bap hnye aq nan dy aje y tahu cmne hbgn ktowank slame 6bln...

              "roh hasman..andai ko alek ag at aq..aq jnjy ta an wat ko cm dulu..aq akn jge ko elok2..aq ta an mrajuk2 ag..aq akn hrgai kasih syg ko at aq..aq ta akn abaikn pwasaan ko ag..aq windu ko..aq windu syuman ko..aq windu ktawe ko..aq windu suare ko..aq windu na tngok mke ko..aq windu kasih syg ko..aq windu nakal2 ko..aq windu btape caringnye ko at aq..ya Allah..knape aq ta nmpak sume wu dlu?knape aq abaikn dy?kasih syg dy?knape aq dgil sgt?knape aq ego sgt?tp aq tol2 syg at dy..seikhlas aty aq..cme aq ta taw na tnjok cne..ya Allah..jgnlah ko ilangkn pwasaan aq nyh...dktknlah hty aq dgn hty dy..n hty dy dgn hty aq..n kuatkn lah hty kami dgnMu...aminnnnnnn......"


December 24, 2011

jaybee!im back!

 
             yoyoyo...aq da at jaybee yo!hahah...horeyh!!!suke suki..haha...xcited an?gile..tepat kol 6 pg aq da brtapak at bus stnd larkin..dgn rse na trkucil y trsgt2..haha..bap ta leh na kuo ne2 un dlm bs..act..ta la sjok sgt bap first tyme dpt sit blakng gle an..sonok!ne ta sonoknye..dpt lak sit nan laky..haha..encom kot!stylo..haha..act..ta nmpk sgt mke dy..bap aq nmpk la kestyloan dy uh..haha..si tyra n ira dok gelak2 tgok aq dok nan laky..haha..yela..aq an da single..huhu..poyo an?..y plek gle..aq leh tido nyanyak gle..mmt sblah aq nyh leh lak ta tido an..hmpeh..bap stiap kly aq trsedar mst dy ta tido...dr nek bas pai la twon bas..plek kot aq..ape dy nyh ta tdo mlm..aq un cuak2 la law dy wat pape..haha..tade la..leh lak sit blakang uh tade pnghdg tgh..wu y ktowak pnye kaki ad la trlggr..hah..nsb dy kuwos..law gmok..kompem2 da lggr bdn dy nan aq..omg!ta sggop i..haha..poyo...

           ntah npe mse at dlm bas..aq leh trigat at dy..mse ktowank nek bas sme2 pai jaybee...dr ipoh..sday gle kot...first tyme aq nek bs bdue nan pkwe aq..um...tachink gle kot...pai mngis2 aq ta bnty twingt dy...mse2 sme2 nan dy..pai mse dy na lps an aq nek bas alek kote..cm dy sday sgt..aq nmpak mke dy mse wu..yela..ktowank sme2 dkt 2hry..then bpisah..dy alek ipoh..aq lak at jaybee..swies sday..pai aq un nangis ble da ta nmpak byg dy...mse wu..aq ta leh na gmbr an pwasaan aq nyh..aq taw dy syg aq tol2 dlu..n aq ta leh na pk law dy leh lpe an aq cm wu aje..aq nyh trsiksa sgt windu dy..tp tol ke dy ta ingt aq lgsong..ya Allah....enough la jiwang2...


             aq ta twoz alek kote mse wu..solat subuh dlu at larkin then tnggu adeq aq dlu..dy g uma cikgu dy..na alek uma saeng aq la..y gwamnye nan adeq aq nyh..jnjy nan aq kol 7.30 tp dtg kol 8.30..sbo aje..then wu..twoz amek bas twon kote...dlm kol 10.00 aq da pai kote da..mk aq amek nan ayh aq..mk aq bly brg2 sket..then twos la alek uma....nothink wat pape at uma awi nyh..just tgok movie pai mlm..huhu..tp y blek..aq ta mbok bs sgt un..bse lau aq alek dr ipoh..aq mst pai uma kna tdo dlu dlm 2-3 jm..bwu la ok mbok aq wu..tp kdg2 pai 2 hry un mbok ta hbis..nyh ta mbok un alek uma..plek2..tp k la..ad pningktn..haha..k la..chiow...

December 21, 2011

sbulan da......



           20.12.2011..hry nyh gnap la sbulan aq single..kjp la jgk da sbulan ek..aq ase cm bwu smlm aje aq clash..cm bwu smlm aje aq dgr suare dy..cm bwu smlam aq tgok mke dy..cm bwu smlm dy snyum at aq..ya Allah..aq sgt2 rndukn dy...trlmpau sgt..kuatkn aq ya Allah...mnghadapi dugaan Mu ini...dn dlm sbulan nyh jgk mcm2 da jd dlm idop aq..brubahnye aq..mgkin ta la mndadak..tp sdikit sbanyak ad jgk prubhan dlm dry aq nyh..aq na try gk ubah prangai aq..tp cm sush..prangai an..dry kecik kot cm wu..wu y law na ubah uh sush..bbrpa minggu sblm nyh myb aq look cm tade life lgsong..pkaian ntah ke mne srabainye..dgn mukenye lg..dgan mkn mnum..pwangainye..sgt2 twok..bak kte owg cm owg maty laky..haha..sdgkn..tunang un lum..lg la na kwen..hah..but act..owg y kte syg sgt2 an..lg la bnda nyh cm blaku mngejut..tbe2 aje aq d tggl an..tnpe skit un rse simpaty..mang sgt2 brt aq na trimenye..tp lme klamean..aq try jgk..bkn tok lupe an dy slamenye..n bncy dy pe sume..juz na tng an dry n stop pk sal dy wat smntra..bap aq na focus at stdy..but..syg aq nyh at dy..skit un ta pna brubah..sme aje dr dlu pai ckunk..pai owg tnye if dy alek smule at aq..aq trime x?..aq jwb jek la aq trime..da aq syg ag at dy..tp dowank mrah lak..ckp la y dy da wt mcm2, ta an sng aje aq maap an..mang la ase sday uh ad lg..pe y dy da wt at aq..tp ntah npe aq ykin sgt dy len brubah..aq knl dy cm ane..wu aq ta slah an dy..aq knl hbgn aq cm ane..so..aq ag knl dy dy owg len..if owg len na bwok an dy sgale bgai..aq ttp cye at dy..myb mse aq mrh..aq smbur mcm2 at dy..tp tgh mrh..mang la..lg la kna hasut nan owg2..lg la naek antu aq..haha..sengal ek..tp aq da blajr dr pe y jd at aq nyh..mang btol ckp mk..bgos pe y jd at aq nyh..at least, aq taw ne silap aq..aq taw pe y slah..pe y btol..n insyaallah..aq ta an wat ag n brubah jd lbh bek ble brhubungan next tyme..aminnnn....


           Mang aq na focus tol2 at stdy skt nyh..mang ta pk un na kapel2 ag kot..da serik..cme aq still ad la kwn nan laky..just wt teman aje..ta hrp lbh..n aq un la hope dowank cm wu gk..aq syg kot ble da kwn lme..then kapel..bap pna jd dlu an....ag un..aq ta na la kcewa2 ag la sgale bgai..pnt wo...aq na score 2 sem nyh..hopely la..ye la..aq pnye pointer un ta sbaek mne an..na gk ase grad dpt pointer above 3.5..bngge la jgk cgpa dpt 3.5 above..hehe..wlau un ta dpt naeb censelor an..huhu..pnaz la dpt..wu la yna..ta blajo btol2 dr awl sem..pdn mke..huhu..bcinta aje..pe dpt?dpt mrane ad la..kcewa sne snyh..laky leh bg ko pe?sekse jiwa ko aje..tmbah dose ko aje..beq ko blajo aje la...ta lry mne jdoh ko wu..law ko kejor cne un jdoh ko uh..law Allah ta izin an..ta an la dtg at ko..so..serah aje sume kt Allah..dy aje y tahu pe y trbeq tok kte...aminnnnn...


           Hopely..roh hasman bin roh haily dlm keadaan beq aje at sne...aq rindu sgt2 kt ko..law la ko dgr n ko taw pe y ad dlm aty aq nyh...tp ko taan taw..n aq un ta dpt na amek taw sal ko at sne da..ko ta prlu an aq da cm ne aq prlu an ko..aq sntiase doakn kbahgiaan ko...hrp2 ko bhagia n sehat2 aje at sne..aq rindu snyuman ko...n aq hrp ko ta sday2 n tnsen2 ag k cm ne ko nan aq dlu..aq syg nan ko...!!ya Allah..ko lindungilah roh hasman drpd sbrg kjahatan n kburukan...briknlah dy kbahagiaan...jgnlah brikn dy rse sbgaimne aq lalui skrg nyh...aminnnnnn




December 18, 2011

tlong jge dy tuk aq.......



            Hry nyh pg2 lg aq da bgn..bkn wtpe un..men gme..smbong movie y aq tngok mlm td n cbot pkok aq..haha..act mlm td mang aq ta chat gle..sket kpale nyh cm na pecah..swies!..pai pg td aq ase aq sket2..npe ntah ek...kdg2 mang ase gk la...aq cm ta leh pnat..t twoz sket...wiso gk aq kdg2..nan at bhagian bdn aq ad stu tmpat nyh sket gle..ble d tkan, mkin skit..ta taw lak npe an..tp tape la..owg ckp, law sket..mknenye Allah nga ampun an dose kte..alhamdulillah..aq trime aje la..tp dlm mse y sme..ad la wiso..tkot bnda nyh dtg an bhaye..hopely ta la...but then..aq tido la alek..bgn kol 11 kot!twok!..ingt an un tamo bgn ag..hah..tp bap pk na solat dhuha..t lau da ad klas, tade mse na wat..bap klas pack sgt an..kna gak la bgn...da siap andy n solat..aq bsoh bju..then swapan..n blajo la sket2...n tbe2!kpale aq sket ag!npe nyh..ya Allah..kuat an la aq.....then lme2 k la...


              Dlm kol 4 wu aq da ta leh na stdy..kpale aq ad ase sise2 skit ag..wu aq bring jp...then trtido pai la kol 6...da wu..bgn, andy solat sume...pnaz lak ajk aq tngok wyg at dsi..aq un lyn aje..act..tade bnda sgt na wat...awl gk la g dwn..kol 8 kot..smate2 na seat strategik na tngok movie..heh...da la strt lmbt kot..aq un wat la pape y ptot..dlm kol 9, cte wu strt..pe ek tjok dy..NANNY MACFEE..mle2 acm ta sonok la an..then lme2..besh gk..ctenye swies lwk kot!cte sal ahli sihir ajor bdk2 y ayh dy bz kje n dowank da tade mk..so cm ank2 dy nyh agk krg kwln la..wu y nanny nyh dtg..cm na tlong asuh dak2 wu..tp y klako..dy ajor 5 rules aw..law slah stu rules wu dak2 wu wat, bnda bwok y ad at muke nanny wu akn ilang...last2..nanny wu jd cntek..haha...lwk kot...dy pnye prinsip..law dy ta d prlu an..dy akn stay at c2..law d d prlukn,dy akn prgi dr c2..hah..pape aje...dlm kol 10.30, habis da..then twos grak laek nan pnaz...
Pai blek aje..mkn biskot jp..g solat..then blajo la sket...tp smbil2 dngo lgu at phone..leh lak byk lgu tachink kuo..aq un tachink ah skaly..twingt dy la plak..sbo2 yna sbo...kuat an dry ko k..act..ptg td aq msj asma..awk izmer..room8 kpd roh...


“Assalamualaikum.hye asma..ny yna..umm..soe kco..juz na mntx tlong aje..tlong  tngok2 an roh ea..if ad pape jd at dy..tlg bgtaw yna eh..im still luv him n care about him..yna taw asma beq n agk rpt nan dy..law dy prlu pape, asma tlong eh?n if dy cm nkl2 n tamo blajo..asma tlong ingt an dy ea tok blajo..yna na dy bjaye..tp da ta leh na jge dy ag..hope asma leh tgok2 an dy..law dy sket ke..asma jgn gtaw spe2 ea yna msj nyh..roh ke..izmer ke..ta na pai roh taw..t dy mrh lak..yna doakn dy epi nan plihan dy..ta pn un bncy dy..still syg n miz him soo much!..yna un doakn asma nan izmer..k la..thanz..soe ta smpt na knl sgt nan asma..yna nyh mang segan sket nan owg y bwu knl..soe k..t8 cre..bubui..assalamualaikum....”


            Aq mang care ag sal dy..wlau un aq taw..dy da ta pduli un sal aq n ta ingt un at aq..but..aq always ingt at dy n syg at dy..aq ta taw pai ble..tp lec aq ad ckp..umo2 kte 20 pai 22..adlah tyme y mne pe y kte wat ikot aty kte ad la bnda y btol..n aq ikot aty aq y aq akn still syg dy n tnggu dy..ta taw pai ble..p aq akn tnggu dy pai aq tol2 jmpe owg y btol2 syg at aq..n slagi dy bkn suamy org..aq ak tnggu dy..tp ble dy da suamy owg..aq ta an kco..bap aq ta ske kco pkwe owg n suamy owg..bp wu la..aq tamo kco dy da bp dy pkwe owg..aq hnye mmpu doa n tnggu aje...lau ad jdoh, ta kn lry kmane..aminnn...n aq hope la..tade lg mne2 laky or pmpuan akn kco hbgn aq pash nyh ble aq da ad owg y d syangi...aminnnnn....




December 17, 2011

jdoh xkn lry ke mne....



           hry nyh aq cm pnt gle kot..ta taw la nape..na kte byk xtvt smlm, cm ta sgt la..but aq byk bjalan kot..n then..tdo un lmbt gk..wu y pai trsedar dr tdo 2 kly aje..kol 6 n kol 7.15..nsb sdor 7.15,smpat ag na solat subuh..law  ta..hampeh..hah..act, plan na kuo bnda nan pnaz n su..wu y aq tido pas subuh wu sek trjage aje..sbo aje..but tade un msj dr dowank..huh..tido ag la wu..kmpem..last2 pnaz bgn ckp g kol 12...gle lmbt..aq da la bgn kol 9 lbh..tp tape la..dpt gk aq stdy sket2....


            act..aq ta taw un na bly pe g bnda u..sje2 kot..nan bnk in wet tok faez n byr alek wet bpk aq..wu jek la..hah..tamo abesh an wet un...tp y aq ta skenye nyh..g bnda u..ad jek y wat aq ingt dy..g tesco jek la tade bnda aq ingt sgt..si syidot ajk mkn at T.G corner..aq ta taw un kdai wu..then ble g..omg!kdai y aq slalu mkn nan dy..y ad nsi aym sedap uh..act..twingt kot..mam abc sume at c2..lalu ne2 kdai y aq pna singgah nan dy..jln2 nan dy dulu mse awl2 knl..tuhan aje y tahu pwasaan aq mse wu..sday sgt!tp aq ta ckp un nan dowak..aq diam  an aje n wat2 ktawe..byk sgt aq ktawe..smate2 na ilg an pwasaan sday aq wu...tp jaoh dlm sudut aty aq...”I MISS HIM SOOOOO MUCH!!!”...rindu aq at dy wu mang sgt2 ta trbyg..ummm...


             ta lme un aq at sne..dlm kol 5 4 wu da grak alek uitm..ad la aq bly mkn nan sehelai bju!hehe..kaler oren..mle2 aq na bly kaler kuning cntek kot!mnyale!but ble try,ktat la plak..n ble na butang bju uh..oppssssss!trcbot butgnye....omg!gemoknye aq..haha..mang sengal y tramat kot..ad ke ptot?aq un cuak gle..bly bju kaler len n twoz bla..haha..sengal knnn?hah..


               mlm td aq dok sbok aje tnye shaz nan fai cne na maintain single..aq nyh an ta kuat..mang la aq syg ag at dy..tp aq kdg2 sng sgt sgkut dgn pjuk ryu laky..n kdg2 ta pai aty ble owg mlamar aq n aq na tolak...btol ckp pqa..aq nyh brany n ta serik...sbnrnye aq jenis y ta leh single..wlau aq ta syg owg wu un..jnjy aq ad kapel..syg uh blakang cite..tp ckunk aq tamo ag da..aq tkot lau aq syg sgt2 ag at owg..wu y aq tamo bg hrpn at ne2 laky..ble dowank strt cm gaye na usha aq..aq twoz tuka topik..hah...aq syg dy ag la..n lg stu..ckop la da 10 nyh...ta yah la twok sgt jd pmpuan..aq kna kuat!


               Ntah npe la kpale aq sket gile kot..twok gle..mcm na pitam un ad...saket sgt3...aq ta thn gle..ble aq pk2..myb Allah na ampun an dose aq..wu aq sbr jek la..ble ta thn wu..aq mkn ubt twoz ingt na tido..tp ta leh..tbe3 tringt at dt n pe ag..mncurah2 la air mte aq nyh..pe2 jek y aq pk at otk aq nyh..pai la aq trtido...n ckunk aq trbgn bap dgr byik alarm aq set td..na solat isyak...ble tgok phone ad la bbrape mskol n msj...n msj uh dr faez..he said..”salam..yen..td roh kem slam at ko...”..omg!btol ke pe y aq bace nyh..ye..dy km slm at aq?ya Allah...ntah npe aq epi sgt..aq mang na sgt taw sal dy tp aq ta brany da..tkot sday...ble ad kabar..cm epi sgt..”alhamdulillah..sudi jgk dy kem slm at aq..ingt da bncy ad da..thnz faez...”.....tenang sket aty aq... “ala...lau jdoh ye ta an kmane....”...insyaallah faez..aq sntiase bdoa tok wu...aq ikhlas syg an dy..dr awl ktowank knl pai ckunk..n aq sntiase bdoa y dy akn brubah..jd seorg llaky y baek..lau bkn tok aq un..tok dry dy sndry....dn aq brubah jd lbh beq....insyaallah..seorg pmpuan y beq...aminnn...alhamdulillah......



December 15, 2011

mmp?pe mksdnye?

           aq jd rajin lak hry nyh...sek stdy aje..yela sgt..sje mmbz an dry..dry dok ingt bnda bkn2 y wat otk aq kusut masai..haha...beq aq stdy an....hah..tp tipu la aq ta ingt dy...ingt sgt..tiap mse aq ingt dy..tp aq taan jek pwasaan aq..kdg ad rse na ngis..tp aq kuat an gk dry aq..tamo da sday2..yana kna kuat..wlau un dlm aty wu trluka..tp yana kna always syum..bio tade y taw yana ingt dy...tol3....

       
          act..ckunk da strt quiz..so aq kna la strt focus at stdy..ad ag 2 sem jek..so aq kna la perform..hope tade y ganggu aq sem nyh..aminnnn....wlau un aq da single but not available..haha..tp aq brsyukur la ad ag y tmn aq...act..aq da kwn nan dy sblm aq kapel...tp segan lak aq nan dy..yela..ingt dy ble aq sunyi jek..tp na wat cne an..ta an na curg nan pkwe aq..so..kna la gk jaoh2 dry kwn2 laky..man nyh act beq la..always bg aq support aq..n ble ad prlu an dy..dy sntiase ad..so aq ta rse la sunyi sgt..trisi jgk ksunyian aq..tp aq ta hope pape la at dy...kwn jek un...but..aq ad gk kwn nan sowank nyh..akim la nme dy...cme mslahnye..n bkn na kwn jek nan aq..but mnghrp lbh..aq ta leh la..aq acm ta leh na trime ne2 laky nyh..huh..nga kcewa ag..hah...


akim : yna..maap an akim..knape yana ta leh trime akim?
aq : yna mntk maap akim..yna bkn ta leh trime akim aje..yna mang ta leh na trime ne2 laky ag..
      yna ta taw pai ble..tp pntu aty yna mang da top tok laky ckunk nyh..
      kcewa yan trlampau byk..n yna ta kuat tuk hdapi sume wu..
      yna taw akim ta leh na tnggu yna...wlau akim kte akim da brubah..
      tp rse pcaye yna at laky da tade da..sowi..yna kna stdy dulu skunk nyh...
      n juz leh kwn aje nan mne2 laky..yna mntk maap sgt3..pai ble2 un..kte ttp kwn..jgn wiso k...


           act..mlm td aq mmp...nta la na ckp besh ke ta..aq ta taw la..bap aq ta bpe na ingt sgt la..y pnting aq ingt y aq mmp dy alek at aq ag..wu jek aq ingt...ta pasty aq trime ta..or nta la....pe mmp wu tol2 akn jd kyataan ke?or juz mainan tido...mmp..tlg jgn bg aq hrpn..aq still sgt dy..n aq akn brusha tok prtahan an pe y aq rse wu...nta aq ta taw pe y d pk sal aq ckunk nyh..n pling pnting..mmg dy ta an pna ingt at aq la an..so yna..!jgn na brhrp sgt k!hah...poyo aje an...ckop2 la wu..ignore him....hah

            bdn aq sgt2 letih nyh..dok bjalan sne sny aje..cm na pgsn n pitam un ad gk nyh....swies sket gle kot..nan kpale aq berat smacm..ke ssb mmp wu?omg...jgn la sbb mmp wu sume..mmbeban an otk aq ag....da la yna..jgn mnghrp...serah jek sume at Allah..tnggu jek pe y akn jd k.....

December 14, 2011

pahitnye d telan....



Hary nyh dr pg aq syum n ktawe aje...hepi sgt hidup aq awi nyh..sgale mslh aq plah2 kabur..wlau un kdg2 ad gk dy dtg..tp aq wt bodo jek..aq da mls na lyn pwasaan aq wu..wlau un mang aw ta bpe na kuat..tp aq than aje..tade y taw d sbalik snyum n ktawe aq wu..sbnarnye simpan pwasaan y sdih sgt2 n tramat sgt...tp aq ta tnjuk wu sume..aq na try jd yana y baru..bkn yna y nangis aje psl seorg llaki...aq ta na lg ngiskn laky...n aq ta na jgk kapel ag da...trauma da sume...bio la..aq single ckunk but not available..haha..mang swonok ble ktawe2..tp y ta bpe likenye..slere mkn aq un mmbuak2..sgt ta like...enough la...kte na simpan wet yna..kte na jge bdn yana..pecer?ok2..last2...kwl yana..plish la..huh...
But act..tbe2 ayh aq kol..jrg kot ayh aq kol..tkejot aq..ingt an ad amergency...upenye..juz na tnye keadaan ank prmpuan dy nyh..aq ckp jek aq ok..aq tamo sush an aty mk ayh aq....pnt aq tahan..wat2 epi...but ble yah aq msj...aq ta leh na taan pwasaan nyh...tumpah jgk air mte aq....


ayah : Allah ta mnguji hmbanya melebihi kemampuan hambanya dan stiap kjadian 
         pasti ad hikmahnye..brsangke baiklah, insyaallah apa y kte ta dpt hry nyh..
         anggaplah y kte akn dpt lbh baik akn dtg...
aq :    akak un hrp cm wu gk..akak da try tok trime sumenye..akak serah at Allah 
         aje hidup akak nyh..Dia aje y tahu pe y trbaik tok akak..akak ad mak,ayh,adik2
         dgn kwn2 lg..trime ksih mk ayh..bg akak smgt..mgkin pe y blaku sbgai blsn akak yg lmpau..
ayah : jgn slak an dry sndry..stiap kjadian wu ad mkne y trsirat..kta kne brsyukur dgn 
         pe y kte ad..insyaallah..Allah akn beri y lbh baik tok kte..skrg..tumpukn pd cite2 akak..
         serahkn sgale2nye pd Allah..jgn lupe solat dn brdoa..mk n ayh sntiase doakn kejayaan 
         akak dn adik2..amin...


swies sday...um..syg mk n ayh!..em...but for akim..soe la yna ta pat na trime akim blek..yna ta leh na lyn akim sgt..yna tkot akim brharap at yana..hty yana dah byk sgt kcewa..da tlmpau byk bks luke dlm hty nyh..na un da trauma...jnjy2 akim un yna da ta leh na trime..bg yana..jnjy laky sume dusta..n yana da ta leh na cye laky dah...pe y da jd at yna...wat yana sgt3 kcewa n stress gle...cinta n syg yna hanya tok owg y tol2 syg yna..bkn tok d mainkn..n hty nyh juz utk laky y tulus mncintai yna..bkn tok d robek2..ckop la akim....yana da ta sggop da.....biarlah hidup yna nyh..jdoh yna..Allah y tntukn.........maap an yana.............



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