December 10, 2011

knape sng sgt?

          da skian lme aq ta dngo pape cite sal dy act..(2 mnngu jek un)...n kwn aq lak bwk brite..aq doa byk2 spaye Allah kuat an hty nyh...mang brdebar2 sgt pwasaan aq mse wu..n then...kwn aq ckp..lpe an jek dy..he already have sumone....ya Allah..mse wu..ta trgmbr pwasaan aq..sday sgt3..bap dy kte dlu dy lps an due2..but..aq ta sgke dy still tipu aq...tape la..myb mang bkn jdoh aq nan dy kot....

          "akak..akak ta leh cm ny..akak kna stdy..aq kna try jgk lpe an dy..lau dy pg at owg len..myb dy bkn tok akak..n dy bkn y trbaek tok akak..mang kdg2 hdup kte nyh ad mcm cte2 at tv..mcm mne kte kejar owg wu..kte usha owg wu cm ne un..law dy mang bkn tok kte,kte ta an dpt...tgh kte sbok kjar owg len..kdg2 kte ta sdar y jdoh kte wu ad dpn mte kte...n ad jgk jdoh kte wu jaoh dr kte...n tggu mse jek dy na dtg at kte..n t bru la kte sdar..klau kte taw dy jdoh kte dry dlu..mang lbh beq kte bcinta jek dgn dy dry dlu..ta yah tnsen2 kcewa sume...akak....akak kna kuat...akak jgn risau..rmai lg lelaki y akn dtg at akak...akak blajar dulu..insyaallah..y trbaek akn dtg at akak suatu hry t......."

          dlm aq sdih2 nyh..ex ad dtg alek at aq...n dy ckp nan aq, dy na alek at aq smule...

          "akim sbnarnye rindu kt yana..thnz, sbb amek berat psl akim..klau yana bg akim pluang,akim akn bktikn n akim akn syg yana spenuh hty akim....."

           "maap an yana akim..yna ta dpt na trime akim wt mse nyh..yna bwu jek kcewa..n msih rse lg pdih at aty nyh..lukenye trlampau2 dlm n pedih sgt2...pe y blaku at yna..wat yna jd trauma sgt2...2 kly akim..2 kly yana dtggl an owg y yna syg n dy pg at owg len..first akim..then dy...yna sdar mang yna ta rety jge dy..jge akim..n akim sndry ckp y Allah wu adil..pe y akim wat at yana dlu..akim da dpt blasannye...tp dlu akim ta pna pk an?akim...kte mnusia nyh kna pg at owg y syg at kte btol2..bkn kte g at owg y kte syg..bap t owg y kte syg wu..t akn g at owg y dy syg..mang skrg dy g at kte...tp kte ta taw t pe akn jd....yna da ta trlmpau mghrp ag at dy..sb yna taw..dy ta syg lg da..bio la dy epi nan pe y dy na..yna na dy bhagia..bap dy ta bhagia nan yana....yna doakn dy akn brubah...myb bkn tok yna..tp tok dy..yna syg dy..n yana ta na dy jd twok...."

           knape sng sgt seorg llaki ckp dy syg an kte? n npe sng sgt seorg llaki tinggal n buang kte cm wu jek?knape lelaki nyh cm tade pwasaan?sng2 jek mmbnci...n sng2 jek kmbly at kte smula tnpe pe2 un rse bsalah n malu?ya Allah..knape seorg llaki dcipta sbegitu?knape mreka d cipta tuk mnduga prmpuan sperty aq?ssungguhye aq seorg y lemah ya Allah..kau kuatknlah aq mnghadapi lelaki d dunia nyh..kau lindungilah aq drpd cinta dusta seorg llaki....aminnnnnnn..............

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