January 15, 2012

ad ke lg?


             Ntah npe aq ckunk acm mls da na lyn laky beq2..wlau un nan adeq angkt aq y aq syg dlu...dy mjok ke..tachink ke..mls tol na pjok..mngade lbh..akim lg la..aq mang ta ske bgayot..ble dy kol wu..aq wat ta taw aje..ble da ksian sgt..bwu la angkt..aq mls na lyn sgt owg y ad aty at aq..aq just leh lyn owg y leh anggp aq kwn cm man wu..law dy un ad pwasaan at aq..mang hbis la aq un mls da na cntct dy..ta dap dow na kwn nan owg y ad pwasaan at kte..rimas la..sket2 na usha..bkn na blagk..tp an..laky nyh mang ta leh bg mke..ble awl2..cm nyh la..usha acm na rak..cte korea un klh..tp ble dy da dpt kte..kte un da syg gle at dy..mle la dy wat prangai an...laky ne ckop stu..wu la lky...ego...ingt aq ta leh?aq ag la ego lbh dry laky...huh....
               
             Ummm...act...aq nga sday sgt ckunk nyh...aq sgt3 windukn dy..trlmpau sgt...ya Allah..bntulah..aq sgt windukn dy..pe y prlu aq wat tok ilg an ase nyh..aq windu sgt na dgr suare dy...windu sgt na dgr dy gelak...na tngok dy syum dpn aq..windu sgt na tgok mke dy...dy dgr usikan dy..nakalnye dy..mnjenye dy...ya Allah..aq sgt windu an dy..kuat an la hty aq nyh..aq ta kuat tok mnghadapi krinduaan nyh...knape ko slalu dtg ble hty aq mule tng???knape aq ta leh na lpe ko??knape??knape aq sgt syg n cintakn ko??knape aq snggop tnggu ko?knape ko pna hdir dlm idop aq??n knape ko wat aq smpai sgt cintakn ko..n ta leh lpe an ko?????astagfirullahalazim...ampunkan aq ya Allah..sumenye da d tntukn olehMu....tp aq je y slh mnggunakn pmberianMu..aq lalai.....kuatkan aq ya Allah....
                Ntah pe y mrasok aq awi nyh..ntah tbe2 aje pwasaan nyh dtg..mang la kerap jgk dy dtg..tp ta slalu..wu ble pwasaan wu dtg..aq akn ngis gle2 pai la aq tol2 puash...mk aq y ajo...spaye aq ta trtkn..lpas an sume...n aq un wat...mang past wu..aq akn tenang..pai la pwasaan wu dtg ag...knape la bgitu kuat ase syg aq at dy?wlau un ktowank knl dlm tmpoh msa y singkat..ta cm 2 owg ex aq y trgolong dlm pkwe y aq syg tol2..dowank dak skola aq..ktowank kwn lme..wu tape la law aq syg sgt..nyh..knl n bsame un ta pai staon..ummm...btol ke pwasaan aq nyh?btol ke dy y last?cm aq pna ckp dlu..aq jnjy nan kwn2 aq..owg ke-10..insyaallah..dy lah suamy aq..n bkl jd suamy aq..ataw mgkin..owg len..n jnjy aq wu hnya tnggl jnjy??mang aq hnya mmpu mrncg..tp hanya Allah y beri keizinan...hope law dy la y last..mang pnntian aq ta sia2..n aq hope dy la y trbaeq....law ta..aq hope ad lg y trbaek tok aq..wlau cne un dy..aq taw..mnusia leh brubah..n aq ykin sume wu..cme mse jek y mnntukn....
                Aq nyh mang slau gile cm nyh...mud kjap epi aje...mud kjp mrh...mud kjp sday...mereng an?hahaha...wu la jiwa kcaw yana leeyana ckunk nyh...hahaha..hope2 ang ta gile la ek yana...naye dow...ta smbong dgree lg..dip un ta abes..kwen un blom...hmpeh...na kwen nan spe?ad ke ag owg na aq nyh??aq an ego,,,dgil...kpale batu..kpale angin...sgale bgai la..ad ke na jd an istri pmpuan acm gnyh?hancussss....gile ko yana??da ko na jd ANDARTU ke????agk2 la..wat malu mk bpk ko aje..n then..pe na jwb nan kwn2 ko...naye2..tobat dow...doa2 la ad lg na ko...hahaha...:p

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